IVF Cyle 2: Sadness

My embryos didn't stay. They just melted away.

My Little Dude turned three this week. He was such a happy, laughing boy at his birthday party. He was jumping and dancing with excitement, as if he had so much life and joy in him that he just couldn't keep still.

I have been thinking hopeful thoughts about two other little people laughing and wriggling in my arms.

Now I am thinking morbid thoughts about my body as a virtual graveyard for embryos.

And I feel such sadness that those little ones will never get to live.